10 January 2010
Hari ini, harijadi ayah aku. Harijadi ayah aku yang ke 60. Hari yang sepatutnya menjadi harijadi beliau yang ke-60. Siapa sangka, sudah 6 tahun ayah aku meninggalkan keluarga kami. Meninggalkan kami merindui beliau. Meninggalkan kami dalam duka.
Aku masih ingat tarikh beliau menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya, 27 September 2004. Menerima panggilan dari ibu, aku tinggalkan kuliah dan menaiki the earliest flight dari Kuching ke Sibu. I remembered i cried all the way. I didnt know what to expect. I didnt see what i will face. And i definitely wasnt ready for the worse. But it happened. Tidak sampai sejam selepas aku tiba di hospital, beliau memejamkan mata dengan tenang. Seumpama beliau tidur di ulit mimpi yang indah, meninggalkan kami menangisi pemergian beliau. [im sorry, im feeling emotional now..]
I cant even begin to say, how much i misses his presence. How much i long to call someone Dad. To call him Dad. He was always there for me. I was daddy's little girl, ask anyone. With him gone, aku hilang sayap untuk aku terbang tinggi. Ya Allah, rindunya aku.. i miss u so much, Dad.. Did you know Dad, up till this day, Mummy still keep that last checkered shirt u wore, and put it neatly by the side of her pillow? She didnt even wash the shirt just so to keep your scent around her. Till this day Dad, till this very day.
You know, i could never want any other Dads other than you. You are the king of my heart. I cherished every moment of me as your daughter and i couldn't ask for more. I could talk forever about you, for all the good things, the sacrifices you've made to make my life, truly a life. I am someone now, because of you. I only wished, you could have stayed longer but i know, God loves you more and you'd want us to be happy. Dont worry Dad, we'll take care of Mummy for you. She's a very strong lady you know that, dont you. And she loves you very much..
Happy birthday Dad. You shall forever be, the world's greatest Dad in our hearts. Rest in peace, Al-Fatihah.
15 comments:
sedeh ati mek maca n3 tok.i cant imagine how it feels losing someone very close to me.
al fatihah.
yes.. i also cant imagine that. im so sorry.. i lose my other half makes me feel insane.. i dunno how if i lose my famliy
tsk...awak jahat, awak buat saya nangis. wa!!!!!!
i know how you feel friend, i lost mommy when i was only 3 and even though i have a step mother now it's not the same. like they said, u can patch the hole never can u fix it as a whole.
sabarlah, we all will go to HIM.
I dunno if I ever told u diz, but I knew only about ur dad's passing few years ago coz one of my dad's fren is a relative of ur dad....asaiku menyadi iru ia kah(dunno if i heard wrongly or not, i forgot dat uncle's name some more)...tekenyit amat ku maia nya, coz i know u were d apple of ur late dad's eyes...
He is with God now, Lynn, and free from all suffering. May he rests in peace. I bet he is proud of the person you have become.
Hi F.i.e.z.a:
Mintak dijauhkan Tuhan segala bala dari keluarga kita oo Za.. thanks for the comfort
Hi JT:
Hilang semangat maok hidup kan JT..it took quite some time before i could finally picked myself up in one piece..Sik menidakkan takdir Tuhan, cuma rindu..
Hi Joynstar:
Im so sorry for your loss, and you were only 3..it must have been hard for you. Seteruk2 mine, i have no words for yours. I cant imagine how it's like not to really know your own mother cause you were just a kid then.. :( rindu bertandang di hati, i cant help it
Hi Lois:
No, you've never mentioned this before. Really? Since your dad is a lawyer, the uncle he had spoken to could be my uncle judge, Linton. Could it be him?
Yes, as much i want him around, i wouldnt him to suffer either over his cancer. Let's just let him rest in peace. Thanks for the comfort, appreciate it
You have a strong spirit within you, and im sure it's from your dad you that you got it. Dont lose it, your dad will want you to keep on moving, ok?
Hi passer by:
Thanks passer by. I sure will..
Felicia,
i ikut sayu.
sepanjang 2003, i hilang 7 ahli keluarga terdekat, nenek, abang, kakak, ank buah... akhir sekali bulan disember, ayah... memang Tuhan saja yang tahu.
Beberapa bulan i nak recover melangkah seperti biasa.
Akhirnya kita memang kena meneruskan hidup dengan lebih gagah. Tapi sesekali, sunyi dan rindu, tetap meluluhkan ego walau seorang lelaki.
Kesimpulannya, hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk dibazirkan, tapi terlalu kecil untuk diagungkan hingga mengalpakan.
adoh..blm abis entry dah mengalir aek mata..sensitif mek mun hal gtok.
takziah..take care your mom..
always pray for him.
sedeynyer baca,i almost cried...sabar yer dim,i know u r strong =)
"Mummy still keep that last checkered shirt u wore, and put it neatly by the side of her pillow? She didnt even wash the shirt just so to keep your scent around her."
(Dat part i almost cry. T_T.)
Be strong.
Hi Bang Zainal:
Kesian lagi kat Bang Zainal kan..mesti susah untuk dihadapi. Lumrah alam, kita akan kembali kepada-Nya, cuma bagaimana kita mengawal perasaan saja yang boleh kekalkan kita di dunia nyata..thanks for the comfort bang Zainal.
Hi Beautiful Stranger:
Thanks B.S.I.. appreciate the thought, it's comforting
Hi Ms Abby:
Thanks Abby. ingat lagi masa Dim masuk MMU dulu, time tu baru 3 bulan ayah dim passed away. Susah kaki melangkah..but you guys were there for me :) sayang Abby..muah!
Hi Karina:
Thanks for the comfort Karina. Truly appreciate it..
aaa... alu teringat ngan mak ngan bapak kmk rah kpg yg jaraknya lebih kurang 2-3 jam dari saratok tuk huhu..
Hi Onggon:
Aju ta balit kampung...:) ktk masih travelling gik?
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