Hari ni hari jadi Joeween. Hari ni tinggal 3 hari lagi untuk berpuasa. Hari ini 2004, September the 27th ..
Just the other nite, i dreamt of Dad. Aku mimpi visiting him. Tombs' have changed, so has the one next to Dad's. Locations' have changed. The cemetary was cleaner with tiles all over. And sheltered. It was different.
At this peaceful time, my thoughts are of Dad. Special tribute for someone very dear, very close to my heart.
Lagak hensemFor someone yang taklah berapa tinggi mcm my dad ni, He sure did catch a good fish. I found this picture earlier today. She was a dish alrite but none compare to my mum tho. I wonder how it'd be if it was her that my dad got married to. Mind you, dad's a romantic person. He wooes with his sweet words, which of course, he meant all of them. He's a gentleman, diajar setiap individu yang dia kenal never ever to touch women, by that he meant never to hit women. As well to kids. Dad memang suka babies. Itu pun Dad tak sempat jugak tengok my nephew because dad was already long gone before Nabil was born.
I believe her name is Adeline Chung. Pecah rahsia bercinta. 
This was written behind it. not bad for dad. Davy was dad's name before he converted to Islam marrying mum. They met masa Dad pergi check gigi, way back in the 70's. Mum was a dental nurse before. So dad akan cari all sorts of reasons to come back to the clinic even when he was not having any problem with his teeth. It all began there. hehe..
I remembered when i was a little kid, i was such a spoil brat. But dad never mind that. I remember poking his tummy, tarik kumis nipis, geletek tapak kaki and main kejar2 mcm budak2... i missed that. Missed calling him dad even more.
Daddy's little girl. 
Dad and us 3 siblings. Masa amik photo kena pakai smart. Dulu tak mampu nak amik gambar kat studio,we could not afford it, jadi, this small house became our studio, thankful enough at that time ada camera,itu pun the one yang biasa2 je. Setiap kali amik family photo, salah seorang antara dad and mummy akan missing sebab jadi photographer, we were never whole, and that touched me deeply. Tapi kami 3 beradik tak boleh tak bergambar, wajib ada...
I was only 4 months, there di jaga elok by my brothers. sayang kamu.Masa aku berumur 2 tahun, i dont remember dad. He was away in Penang furthering study leaving mummy with 3 kids. Dulu kami 3 beradik sangat suka makan bahagian roti yang keras cecah kopi cair kurang gula. We did not understand then, and that was, we were poor. We would have porridge with Bovril, sebab porridge tak guna beras yang banyak..sometimes mummy pinjam beras from next door neighbour, oh we were so little we didnt get to understand many things. Tapi we were never out of food. By any means at all mummy will get food served on the table. Suddenly, I feel sad going down this memory lane.
Dad receiving his scroll, by ermm i believed it was Yang Dipertuan Agong Selangor. Moment of pride. Im proud of him.Masa kecik2, aku suka naik motor ride with dad. Merajuk kalau tak bawak aku. Wee wee i'd scream happily. Apa saja aku nak, dad will get them for me. Dari kecil sampailah ke besar. Aku nak buku, aku nak cassette, aku nak cd, semua dad akan tunaikan. Bila aku meningkat dewasa, i asked for something even more, laptops, discman, video player. Semua dia tunaikan. Nak beli under garments, sandals, body tube, just say it, he'll get them for me. Tapi Dad was a strict person. His nature maybe or maybe it was because he was a principal. Bukan tak pernah kena maki aku ni, pernah..sampai menangis merajuk tapi tak lama. Once i drove his car without his permission, i was merely 16, dad marah aku teruk..damn i was scared i ran away from home. Tak lama, few hours je. Balik rumah aku memerap dalam bilik tak keluar2. Hmmm
Dad's Bahasa Melayu sucks big time. He can never get his BM right. That goes well from himself to his siblings, whom none could converse in perfect BM. It wasn't their fault, back then Sarawak was under British colonial, thus the medium was none other than English. He makes perfect English, no doubt about that. Incredibly good but he was the funniest when it comes to BM. He can't spell
cemerlang right. He called in, asking '
is it cemerlang or cermelang?' Oh dad, u are something, u know that.
Dad never got his wish to see me graduate receiving my scroll on stage. Not even diploma. Kadang2 aku terasa hati sebab he was the one yang sentiasa encourage me with my studies until i excel. Skrg, only mum yang accompanied me for my recent graduation. Itu pun mom cried sebab we both knew, we are missing one person. Dalam photo graduation pun, only mom yang ada, when supposedly ada seorang lagi insan tersayang berdiri by my side. It was heart-wreckening.
Dad was someone stubborn then. Masa sakit, not once dia nak gi klinik..makan ubat pun jangan tidak je. Few months before he was diagnosed with cancer, he was already having trouble with tiredness, and he was peeing blood but still tak mau pergi hospital for check up. It was not until his fellow friends forced him, came to our house, threatened they wont leave until he agrees to go to Rajang Medical Center, baru la dia setuju.
Masa sakit, dad could not take anything too watery, nor can he take anything oily. Kesian dad, sometimes dia telan air liur inginkan sesuatu only his health restricted him so. Ada satu masa tu, Dad nak sangat makan aiskrim i bought 5 sticks..3 for me, 2 for him but ended he ate all 5. Sedih masa tu tengok dia makan sepuas hati mcm tak pernah merasa. But i was satisfied. Takpelah i said, kalau dah itu yang dia nak..
During his last moment, dad cari mummy. Mummy was not herself anymore that day. We cried for we felt his pain. Kesian dad, until he finally wished us goodbye. It was painful, too painful we could not bear but believe you me, it was better for dad to go. Daripada tengok dia sakit, kami merasa sakitnya..
This raya shall be our 5th without him. It was never the same, not without him. Never say u understand how i feel cause you dont, not unless u've lost someone dear in your life too. I missed Dad these days, even stronger after i dreamt of him. We'll make it Dad, i'll make it. Im going to show to u i'll be someone successful like you, someone ambitious like you and someone strong like you. I wont give up to life yet, not until u've seen my great achievements. I love you dad, always have and always do.
Al-fatihah
Lagak hensem
I believe her name is Adeline Chung. Pecah rahsia bercinta. 
This was written behind it. not bad for dad. 
Daddy's little girl. 
Dad and us 3 siblings. Masa amik photo kena pakai smart. Dulu tak mampu nak amik gambar kat studio,we could not afford it, jadi, this small house became our studio, thankful enough at that time ada camera,itu pun the one yang biasa2 je. Setiap kali amik family photo, salah seorang antara dad and mummy akan missing sebab jadi photographer, we were never whole, and that touched me deeply. Tapi kami 3 beradik tak boleh tak bergambar, wajib ada...
I was only 4 months, there di jaga elok by my brothers. sayang kamu.
Dad receiving his scroll, by ermm i believed it was Yang Dipertuan Agong Selangor. Moment of pride. Im proud of him.
Cinta Hati. *giggles!
My first slice.. tadi potong tak tengok betul2, so ada cacat sikit..
Second one..
Banyak kan? I dont even know when am i going to wear them.
Here it is again..:) 
Last Tuesday, Cinta Hati was invited to break fast at my place.
Mom cooked special meals that nite. Sebab not only Cinta Hati
see the chocolate flow? that's the delicious part!
In memoriam 
2. 1 teaspoon of pandan paste
for your measurement, see the size of the daisy so u'll know how big your mangkuk should be
12. dlm 15 minit cenggitu, padam api, tuang dlm acuan/tray/bekas...mcm i, i guna tray je pasal takde bekas lain...like this..
13. pastu bior sejuk...hasilnya begini..!
Selepas di potong into one slice..[yumm!]
Turning the delight on by adding fruits to its side. Here's buah naga to mencantikkan lagi puding..
Cantik!!!
Very the sombong, heavy not to mention lazybone. I didnt say that. The owner did.
Napping. (",)
RM2 to guess this cat's weight..madafaka huge! He has his own cage. Very quiet..