For some, you might have noticed that i was on a demotivated mode yesterday..Anyhow, thanks to all my friends in YM for your concern, sorry if i did not reply..nonetheless, i appreciate it a lot.
Yesterday, was hell of a hectic day for me.. as well as demotivating.. I was engulfed with rage towards one of my students during class hour..Tell me people,
Was i wrong to throw him out of my class when he said
Was i wrong to throw the hard duster to his face when he said
Was i wrong? What's your tolerance in terms of food serving if you celebrate Gawai or Xmas when you have other religion (namely Muslim) visits you during any of these festive season? Was my question. Simple and straight..but he just wont make my day go off that easily.
This 17 year old boy, i have been tolerating his manners dozens if not gajilion times already and my patience has taken to its toll yesterday when he seemingly thought it would be a great joke by answering me 'beri mereka makan babi, cikgu'... not once but thrice.
Explain to me, how can i not feel as though a volcano has erupted? I was in great anger i felt like landing my hands hard on his face! I warned him twice do not give me stupid and sensitive answer, but acting like a super hero, he ignored my words..only after i threw the duster twice that he left the classroom. "You stay out of my class, i dont want you here!" were my finals words to him..
But then, after a while, i felt that tremendous guilt inside me.. I was suppose to teach him, not push him away.. i was suppose to educate him, how to become a good person, not show him one opposite example. He is already known as a problem kid, then why should i be angry? I should have just ignored, but if he wont listen, then should i?
I love my students as my own. I felt so wrong..dalam aku marah, aku sedih sebenarnya.. aku sayang budak tu..nakal lah mcm mana sekali pun, dia tetap anak didik aku.. org semua beranggapan he and his friends can never changed and that perception eventually made them that way.. if only i had just a little more of tiny pieces of patience ystrday, throwing him out of my class wouldnt've happened..
:'(
Yesterday, was hell of a hectic day for me.. as well as demotivating.. I was engulfed with rage towards one of my students during class hour..Tell me people,
Was i wrong to throw him out of my class when he said
"Sup Babi"
Was i wrong to throw the hard duster to his face when he said
"Babi Panggang"
Was i wrong? What's your tolerance in terms of food serving if you celebrate Gawai or Xmas when you have other religion (namely Muslim) visits you during any of these festive season? Was my question. Simple and straight..but he just wont make my day go off that easily.
This 17 year old boy, i have been tolerating his manners dozens if not gajilion times already and my patience has taken to its toll yesterday when he seemingly thought it would be a great joke by answering me 'beri mereka makan babi, cikgu'... not once but thrice. Explain to me, how can i not feel as though a volcano has erupted? I was in great anger i felt like landing my hands hard on his face! I warned him twice do not give me stupid and sensitive answer, but acting like a super hero, he ignored my words..only after i threw the duster twice that he left the classroom. "You stay out of my class, i dont want you here!" were my finals words to him..
But then, after a while, i felt that tremendous guilt inside me.. I was suppose to teach him, not push him away.. i was suppose to educate him, how to become a good person, not show him one opposite example. He is already known as a problem kid, then why should i be angry? I should have just ignored, but if he wont listen, then should i?
I love my students as my own. I felt so wrong..dalam aku marah, aku sedih sebenarnya.. aku sayang budak tu..nakal lah mcm mana sekali pun, dia tetap anak didik aku.. org semua beranggapan he and his friends can never changed and that perception eventually made them that way.. if only i had just a little more of tiny pieces of patience ystrday, throwing him out of my class wouldnt've happened..:'(
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Mak n Bapak mek bekerja sebagai cikgu tapi sidak sekda molah miak kedak ya... Syabasss..!!! Apa yang kmk mauk padah is that yang nemiak camya mmg ptt sbnrnya d polah kedak ya... Biarnya insap.... Bukan semua kenak toleransi.... We as human being pun ada time molah silap juak ba.... Mun kmk tikam mek terus ke dalam sungei sak d makan boyak... Hahaaa... Gaok ada jak.... Sekpat mek jd cekgu.... Nways, ah moi perlu sbr ngn kerenah miak kedak ya... Nama gik nemiak... Olah pun kedak nemiak.... Mun dpt ktk saiko balit sidaknya.... Saknya tauk sapa AH Moi santek sebenarnya.....U Rock Girlss!!!!
Chaiyok2!!!
Hmm..reading through, i thought what you did was right..but towards the end, i'd have to agree, that you as a teacher, should have more patience knowing he is already a troubled kid..still, you did what you think was right at that time..yes, sometimes, we do need to be stern with them after giving multiple chances..keep up the good work ok..
AmiFX:
Ada masanya perlu bertegas..kmk yang rasa bersalah sebab miak ya nang dah ditauk mancal,kmk dgn ruginya telah merembes darah kemarahan secara sia-sia..nama pun mbiak nak..*sigh
Maksih anyway..lega dpt dikongsi
a passer by:
yea, i guess so..whatever you have said, sums it all..thanks..
Ahmoi, you did nothing wrong ok..
You did your job well..
Anonymous:
Hmmm ok..thanks for the support Ano..needed that
Sometimes a teacher perlu strict macam apa yang kitak polah tok. Memang as a teacher, you should felt guilty..becoz there r yr students. And it shows that u care for them walaupun sidak molah camya. Anyway, it's a good decision to punish him camya. Kids tok, mun kita terlalu lembut glak.. susah juak. Mudah nak nait kepalak. simok nak blaja. By end of the day,.. makbapak juak susah bila nanggar anak sik terdidik camya. XD
nang patut ko molah camya. ku penah juak jd cikgu sandaran..asa nak gila aku nangga perange miak kinek tok. nang x hormat cikgu lgsung. teringat aku masa kita sekolah..segaok2 kita xda kita melawan cikgu. mun sekali cikgu dah mdh alu ekot.
AudiO:
Thanks for your support Audi0..miak nek tok nang lah banyak kurang ajar, tapi alhamdulilalh setakat tok kmk maseh boleh bersabar dgn kesabaran yang makin menipis..demi anak2 tek, kmk tahankan ajak..thanks again..
::suenas05::
kau dolok ngajar form berapa? nak aku tok form 4 tapi sepatutnya form 5, sebabnya peralihan dolok..PMR nya byk E, byk D..ya ku lemah, kenak nya sik berpikir pjg tentang masa depan..benar kata kau sue, aku sik nangga the respect i showed dgn cikgu time sekolah marek dgn miak nek tok..
Felicia, our patience has its limits. im not saying i condone what u did because yre my friend BUT u have been extremely patient with him so i guess, it was only natural for you to blow yr top off. mun kmk, i know ill do more damage. kmk tok nang pemanas (ya kali mek x dapat jadi teacher). he should consider himself lucky that u only threw at him the duster and threw him off the class. if i were the teacher, kmk rasa ill throw EVERYTHING in my sight at his face. seriously.
senang cita lah nak, they can't expect you to just play along with their antics, because..
teachers ain't prophets!
its as simple as that. plus, hes 17 for gods sake. not 7.
thats what i think lah nak. at the end of the day, different strokes different folks.
Myra:
:) thanks..you made my day better. Kmk terasa guilty jak sebab dlm sekolah, he is under my care when they are in my session so ditching him out wasn't the supposedly exemplary move. haih, still, how i wish they would just respect us teachers more..
....sup babi dan babi panggang...penah juak student ku merik jawapan ya....tapi ku nambah gik, besanya time gawai tak org mesti da manggang ular sawa ngan biawak juak nak? n ku bok tauk juak babi tok boleh polah kari...abis kelas, lepak merokok sama2...hahaha
Cursive:
Yarabi ktk..kenak mcm ya?
memandangkan aku x penah jadi cikgu so its not my place to give comments. but from my perspective, that punk really deserved what he got. we're only humans & when pushed to the edge, eventually we will snap. don't dwell too much on it ok? things happen & he might learnt a lesson or two from that incident. he better if he doesnt want to end up dead or in jail with that kind of attitude.
ku sokong kata nieza d atas tok lynn..sayang ada hadnya n sabar pun sama.jgn berik muka gilak ngan miak camtok..kadang gya ngaja baruk nya sedar.
yarabi kmk nang x dapat la jd cikgu eh..huhu..
hahahaha..pasal tikam menikam tok, bapa ku pernah tikam biak guna pensil box nya..tapi lbh ganas dari ko.. ya bukan secondary tapi primary...hahahahaha... primary 3 rasanya..hahahaha.... neway mun dah stress dipolah bising sapa sik makin stress..terima la akibatnya..hahaha... pasal kes kau ya, patut sik buat mcm ya, bukan ku nak menyebelahi la tapi nya pun form 5. sikkan mok main baling2..hahaha... tahniah jak la di atas semangat kesukanan ko main baling2..heehehe...
n i e z a:
i only wished he has more respect like how we were during our school days. i dont see any of that anymore now. i admit, me became angry has got something to do with the sensitive answer and our religion. no respect at all, not even to me..penghinaan ya, even aku gik kalak anok org mun dak nya dah nak makan benda yang kita sik boleh makan..i sure do hope he has learn his lesson, with me at least..
f.i.e.z.a:
yalah za, baruk awal tahun udah bertikam barang kmk ngan miak..lom tgh tahun, bertikam apa gik kah kelak..dgn harapan kesabaran kmk tok diberik tuhan semakin tebal setiap hari..
*n i e z a:
correction: gik *sik kalak anok..opss hehe
arter:
sebab nya umor gia lah aku baling nya makey duster..sebab mun ko denda soh nya berdiri, nya akan berdiri tapi setakat ya jak lah...mun ko paluk nya, ko balit kenak saman..mun ko tarit telinganya, nya suk dan ulang semula kesalahan.. ko sik paham gney miak ctok.. sikpalah, sik juak aku expect kau untuk paham..aku pun hanya maok berkongsi perasaan sedih aku ya jak..
Lynn, I used to teach kids aged 12-17 for a year back in 2006.
In one of my classes I had this problematic student named Alan. Very slow learner and very cincai.Dahlah suka polah bising. Sangat biadap plak tu.
Bila aku slow talk ngan nya, nya ok...tapi 2-3 hari lekak ya jadi antu balit...
Anyway, I don't know if this will work for you, but I think that that student was craving for attention.
Maybe d rmh nya sik diberi perhatian gilak. What you can do is to have a slow talk session to him every day at the end of school.
Ask him about normal stuff, like how many siblings he has, what are his hobbies, which subject is difficult for him to master...and then ask him why he is giving you so much trouble in class..
Let him know that you love all of your students very much and want them all to learn, but his friends can't learn in peace if he disturbs you while teaching.
They may be teenagers, but deep down inside they are still kids who need attention and love.
Hope this helps.
*Aku byk kali nangis time ngajar dolok...hehehehehehe..
Lois:
slow learner, cincai, bising, biadap >> exactly like the boy in my class
thanks for the idea, appreciate it a lot. i may do that, who knows he'll change..hopefully.
i've never cried though, kali aku sama2 keras ati ngan miak..:)
tdah ktk ya eh..miak knek tok nang ada bengang ckit hehe..ada pendekatan berbeda harus dilakukan kepada2 mereka itu hehe..anyway..keep up ur good job as che-gu k! proud of u..hiiii~ =P
nikzz:
yalah nikzz. pendekatan nang lain dah nek tok..dolok sikda msalah tentang pembawaan handphone, skrg lain..arum bulak miak form 1 ada 2 handphone..kalah chegu..
thanks anyway for the words..nang diperlukan gilak consolation ya..kirim salam dgn The Spring k..
no problemaa hehe.. kmk tauk bah gne rasa ktk sbb kmk pnah ngaja miak umur 18 taun(lepasan spm)..masa NS dolok..sekpat nak maksa cdak sebenarnya...hehe. i know how u feel to hehe..klak i kimsalam ngan tS ya huhuhu~
nikzz:
only when you are in my shoes would u understand tol sik..gia lah rasanya..shopping boh lupak org sri aman!
huh..mun aku,miak ya aku polah sup n panggang polah hidangan ngn tetamu.huhu..sorii..tp aku rasa aku ng xpat jd cikgu sebab aku boleh jd kedak time bomb.nunggu masa nak meletup mun ngajar miak kdak ya.adik aku yg sorang ya jak gik aku xda kesabaran nak handle,apatah lagi mun sekelas yg mcm nya/lebih teruk.huhuhu...
Anne:
hehehe, mun kau jadi cikgu, nang kau lah menjadi cikgu paling HOT of the year. gerenti. rami miak mintak no ko pas ya..ku jamin 100%. *you guys should see muka Anne serious mun ngan adiknya* hahaha tapi tetap kacs..
jgn biarkan kemarahan menguasai diri kamu.. ehehe.. eventho kmk setuju juak lah cara ktk ya.. kadang2 when we feel annoying ngan sumone ya.. mmg burst la marah kta.. ehehe..
xpa.. perkara dah jd.. usah d pk lagik.. gus ktk pk gne nak ubah nya.. gne nak nasihat nya.. org special cam miak ya xpat nak ajar cara biasa.. mesti d ajar cara special juak.. if can befriend with him.. ehehe
pande jak mek ajar org.. aehaueha.. if kmk in ur situation.. aehahea.. mmg knk buang kja kali kmk.. ekeke
a0ne:
kmk memang sik suka marah a0ne. kmk bukan pemarah orgnya but once triggered, singa pun boleh takut dgn kmk. i tend to confront those who seek nothing but my anger, sebab kmk rasa, bila di hadap depan2, lebih bagus dari hadap belakang2. kmk sgt marah hari ya, sebab udah berkali2 kmk nahan marah.
ada masanya kmk terasa sik tahan, tapi demi tugas, kmk sabarkan hati dgn lebih kental. benar kata ktk, miak special mcm ya, perlu di ajar cara special..kmk perlukan strategi.
hahaha, sik salah nasihatkan..jgn sampey benar2 kenak buang dah la
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