For some, you might have noticed that i was on a demotivated mode yesterday..Anyhow, thanks to all my friends in YM for your concern, sorry if i did not reply..nonetheless, i appreciate it a lot.
Yesterday, was hell of a hectic day for me.. as well as demotivating.. I was engulfed with rage towards one of my students during class hour..Tell me people,
Was i wrong to throw him out of my class when he said
Was i wrong to throw the hard duster to his face when he said
Was i wrong? What's your tolerance in terms of food serving if you celebrate Gawai or Xmas when you have other religion (namely Muslim) visits you during any of these festive season? Was my question. Simple and straight..but he just wont make my day go off that easily.
This 17 year old boy, i have been tolerating his manners dozens if not gajilion times already and my patience has taken to its toll yesterday when he seemingly thought it would be a great joke by answering me 'beri mereka makan babi, cikgu'... not once but thrice.
Explain to me, how can i not feel as though a volcano has erupted? I was in great anger i felt like landing my hands hard on his face! I warned him twice do not give me stupid and sensitive answer, but acting like a super hero, he ignored my words..only after i threw the duster twice that he left the classroom. "You stay out of my class, i dont want you here!" were my finals words to him..
But then, after a while, i felt that tremendous guilt inside me.. I was suppose to teach him, not push him away.. i was suppose to educate him, how to become a good person, not show him one opposite example. He is already known as a problem kid, then why should i be angry? I should have just ignored, but if he wont listen, then should i?
I love my students as my own. I felt so wrong..dalam aku marah, aku sedih sebenarnya.. aku sayang budak tu..nakal lah mcm mana sekali pun, dia tetap anak didik aku.. org semua beranggapan he and his friends can never changed and that perception eventually made them that way.. if only i had just a little more of tiny pieces of patience ystrday, throwing him out of my class wouldnt've happened..
:'(
Yesterday, was hell of a hectic day for me.. as well as demotivating.. I was engulfed with rage towards one of my students during class hour..Tell me people,
Was i wrong to throw him out of my class when he said
"Sup Babi"
Was i wrong to throw the hard duster to his face when he said
"Babi Panggang"
Was i wrong? What's your tolerance in terms of food serving if you celebrate Gawai or Xmas when you have other religion (namely Muslim) visits you during any of these festive season? Was my question. Simple and straight..but he just wont make my day go off that easily.
This 17 year old boy, i have been tolerating his manners dozens if not gajilion times already and my patience has taken to its toll yesterday when he seemingly thought it would be a great joke by answering me 'beri mereka makan babi, cikgu'... not once but thrice. Explain to me, how can i not feel as though a volcano has erupted? I was in great anger i felt like landing my hands hard on his face! I warned him twice do not give me stupid and sensitive answer, but acting like a super hero, he ignored my words..only after i threw the duster twice that he left the classroom. "You stay out of my class, i dont want you here!" were my finals words to him..
But then, after a while, i felt that tremendous guilt inside me.. I was suppose to teach him, not push him away.. i was suppose to educate him, how to become a good person, not show him one opposite example. He is already known as a problem kid, then why should i be angry? I should have just ignored, but if he wont listen, then should i?
I love my students as my own. I felt so wrong..dalam aku marah, aku sedih sebenarnya.. aku sayang budak tu..nakal lah mcm mana sekali pun, dia tetap anak didik aku.. org semua beranggapan he and his friends can never changed and that perception eventually made them that way.. if only i had just a little more of tiny pieces of patience ystrday, throwing him out of my class wouldnt've happened..:'(
