Human Trafficking

As you're reading, i'm watching Human Trafficking by Hallmark. My god it's sickening.. The movie's about a syndicate luring ambitious young female teenagers, some abducted, some sold by their parents .... then were turned into sex slaves.. No exception from kids as young as 11 to someone's mother. I so believe this human trade still happens in our society. I mean how could they? How could they treat other human beings like this? damn those garbage maggots only deserved to be dead.

Jeez, let me just continue with my movie for now ok.. Emo aku tengok cerita nih..

Amboi Amboi Raya !

Part II

Penuh parking space..First day raya

Friends

Here, we served myriads of cakes, [kek tunjuk we call it].. ada jugak biscuits and candies..

Yumm! Chicken curry..

Rendang daging...delicious!

First day raya was hectic, busy, hot. Nonetheless it was wonderful. Kek choco aku pun di jamu ramai jugak.. bangga, kemvang ivung sevangkuk.. keh keh keh..

First day raya pun never allow me untuk keluar visiting sebab friends come and go dari siang sampai lah ke malam. Min Yien, Sabrina and Leonora came by melawat. They all ajak me pergi 'berjarah' but aiyo saya sangat busylah sekalian amoi..kala malam bulan mengambang, saya sulah penat, ingat mau sui chiao saja..chung liang pun jgn tidak...

Today dah raya ke-tiga. Satu rumah kawan pun aku tak jalan lagik, bukan sombong...no no no. Only, semua geng aku kat sini, adalah non-muslim..iban, cina, bidayuh alahai takde muslim friends..If i do, they're either male friends or sudah balik kampung. Actually ako pon penat sey nak keluar.. layan tido felt more worth it at this time, penat!

Alrity people, i'll come back with next post. For now, i would like to have a short nap..tara!

Raya Part I

First day raya is always a sentimental one. We'll have family photo session, and thereafter bersalam maaf with dear mom..

Family Photo Time

La familia

Siblings and nephew

Sis-in-law with mom..

Huggy muggy sho shweettt!

Seronok dapat 'paper' yang ada nilai! Hehe

I'm 25, and i'm still getting duit raya. Dont be fooled, despite only 3 packets, nilainya WOW! ok.. hehehe..such a lucky gal i'm the youngest in family i get to get the most. From mom, and both my brothers..in all, i dpt RM250 of duit raya...Kaya sekejap for a moment. He he he.. jgn jeles! Berapa korang dapat? Bagitau laaa...

My dearest nephew, Nabil Adam.. Such a doll isn't he?


We received scores of guests visiting sampai we all penat..tak larat betol..but it was fun! That, i will post in my second entry of Raya Part II alrite?

Oh my baju raya?? Tungguuuu... ada special post for that later.. (",) So, stay tuned for more!

Selamat Hari Raya Everyone!

Just a tiny announcement.

I might or might not be posting for the next few days.

Raya la people..masa untuk menggendutkan badan akan bermula!

Consider Point Blank is off for a holiday alrite..

So before i leave...to everyone i know,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin..

Muah! Muah!

Nostalgia

Hari ni hari jadi Joeween. Hari ni tinggal 3 hari lagi untuk berpuasa. Hari ini 2004, September the 27th ..

Just the other nite, i dreamt of Dad. Aku mimpi visiting him. Tombs' have changed, so has the one next to Dad's. Locations' have changed. The cemetary was cleaner with tiles all over. And sheltered. It was different.

At this peaceful time, my thoughts are of Dad. Special tribute for someone very dear, very close to my heart.

Lagak hensem

For someone yang taklah berapa tinggi mcm my dad ni, He sure did catch a good fish. I found this picture earlier today. She was a dish alrite but none compare to my mum tho. I wonder how it'd be if it was her that my dad got married to. Mind you, dad's a romantic person. He wooes with his sweet words, which of course, he meant all of them. He's a gentleman, diajar setiap individu yang dia kenal never ever to touch women, by that he meant never to hit women. As well to kids. Dad memang suka babies. Itu pun Dad tak sempat jugak tengok my nephew because dad was already long gone before Nabil was born.

I believe her name is Adeline Chung. Pecah rahsia bercinta.

This was written behind it. not bad for dad.

Davy was dad's name before he converted to Islam marrying mum. They met masa Dad pergi check gigi, way back in the 70's. Mum was a dental nurse before. So dad akan cari all sorts of reasons to come back to the clinic even when he was not having any problem with his teeth. It all began there. hehe..

I remembered when i was a little kid, i was such a spoil brat. But dad never mind that. I remember poking his tummy, tarik kumis nipis, geletek tapak kaki and main kejar2 mcm budak2... i missed that. Missed calling him dad even more.

Daddy's little girl.

Dad and us 3 siblings. Masa amik photo kena pakai smart. Dulu tak mampu nak amik gambar kat studio,we could not afford it, jadi, this small house became our studio, thankful enough at that time ada camera,itu pun the one yang biasa2 je. Setiap kali amik family photo, salah seorang antara dad and mummy akan missing sebab jadi photographer, we were never whole, and that touched me deeply. Tapi kami 3 beradik tak boleh tak bergambar, wajib ada...

I was only 4 months, there di jaga elok by my brothers. sayang kamu.

Masa aku berumur 2 tahun, i dont remember dad. He was away in Penang furthering study leaving mummy with 3 kids. Dulu kami 3 beradik sangat suka makan bahagian roti yang keras cecah kopi cair kurang gula. We did not understand then, and that was, we were poor. We would have porridge with Bovril, sebab porridge tak guna beras yang banyak..sometimes mummy pinjam beras from next door neighbour, oh we were so little we didnt get to understand many things. Tapi we were never out of food. By any means at all mummy will get food served on the table. Suddenly, I feel sad going down this memory lane.

Dad receiving his scroll, by ermm i believed it was Yang Dipertuan Agong Selangor. Moment of pride. Im proud of him.

Masa kecik2, aku suka naik motor ride with dad. Merajuk kalau tak bawak aku. Wee wee i'd scream happily. Apa saja aku nak, dad will get them for me. Dari kecil sampailah ke besar. Aku nak buku, aku nak cassette, aku nak cd, semua dad akan tunaikan. Bila aku meningkat dewasa, i asked for something even more, laptops, discman, video player. Semua dia tunaikan. Nak beli under garments, sandals, body tube, just say it, he'll get them for me. Tapi Dad was a strict person. His nature maybe or maybe it was because he was a principal. Bukan tak pernah kena maki aku ni, pernah..sampai menangis merajuk tapi tak lama. Once i drove his car without his permission, i was merely 16, dad marah aku teruk..damn i was scared i ran away from home. Tak lama, few hours je. Balik rumah aku memerap dalam bilik tak keluar2. Hmmm

Dad's Bahasa Melayu sucks big time. He can never get his BM right. That goes well from himself to his siblings, whom none could converse in perfect BM. It wasn't their fault, back then Sarawak was under British colonial, thus the medium was none other than English. He makes perfect English, no doubt about that. Incredibly good but he was the funniest when it comes to BM. He can't spell cemerlang right. He called in, asking 'is it cemerlang or cermelang?' Oh dad, u are something, u know that.

Dad never got his wish to see me graduate receiving my scroll on stage. Not even diploma. Kadang2 aku terasa hati sebab he was the one yang sentiasa encourage me with my studies until i excel. Skrg, only mum yang accompanied me for my recent graduation. Itu pun mom cried sebab we both knew, we are missing one person. Dalam photo graduation pun, only mom yang ada, when supposedly ada seorang lagi insan tersayang berdiri by my side. It was heart-wreckening.

Dad was someone stubborn then. Masa sakit, not once dia nak gi klinik..makan ubat pun jangan tidak je. Few months before he was diagnosed with cancer, he was already having trouble with tiredness, and he was peeing blood but still tak mau pergi hospital for check up. It was not until his fellow friends forced him, came to our house, threatened they wont leave until he agrees to go to Rajang Medical Center, baru la dia setuju.

Masa sakit, dad could not take anything too watery, nor can he take anything oily. Kesian dad, sometimes dia telan air liur inginkan sesuatu only his health restricted him so. Ada satu masa tu, Dad nak sangat makan aiskrim i bought 5 sticks..3 for me, 2 for him but ended he ate all 5. Sedih masa tu tengok dia makan sepuas hati mcm tak pernah merasa. But i was satisfied. Takpelah i said, kalau dah itu yang dia nak..

During his last moment, dad cari mummy. Mummy was not herself anymore that day. We cried for we felt his pain. Kesian dad, until he finally wished us goodbye. It was painful, too painful we could not bear but believe you me, it was better for dad to go. Daripada tengok dia sakit, kami merasa sakitnya..

This raya shall be our 5th without him. It was never the same, not without him. Never say u understand how i feel cause you dont, not unless u've lost someone dear in your life too. I missed Dad these days, even stronger after i dreamt of him. We'll make it Dad, i'll make it. Im going to show to u i'll be someone successful like you, someone ambitious like you and someone strong like you. I wont give up to life yet, not until u've seen my great achievements. I love you dad, always have and always do. Al-fatihah

Not Quite My Day

"Guru Ganti tidak boleh dianggap sebagai pegawai sambilan atau mana-mana status lantikan dalam perkhidmatan awam. Guru Ganti tidak layak menikmati semua elaun dan kemudahan lain seperti EPW, BIW, ITP Bayaran Sara Hidup termasuk kemudahan cuti yang layak dinikmati oleh pegawai tetap." -- received today.

Alrite i get it. I'm just a relief teacher. But hear me, i work equal hours (perhaps more), equal days, equal work (i believe i'm doing so much more) with the rest of the teachers. Tell me if this is fair?? Kenapa status itu dijadikan alasan untuk memotong gaji kami? If that is so, we deserve lesser work, lesser burden..because we are paid less. am i right, or am i right?

I teach and work as hard as others, thus why take away my motivation? Fine, it may sound harsh not to mention rude, as though im working blindly for the money but aren't everyone? Why do i work if i wont get paid?? Starting this month, Rm300++ shall be slashed from my pay. That is only a partial. If i dont work full month, say goodbye as well. Can it go any worse than that?

I hate people messing with my life. I fight for my rights even if it means making them hate me. You think i'd care? I have bills to pay okay. I dont just spend my money over damn fucking everyone. Unless you are willing to pay for my bills, i wont stop ranting. Sakit hati ok. Because i know im a good employee and i do my job dutifully. I almost cried a tear, who wont? Bonus pun tak layak..so what's left of my motivation?

Seriously, i've lost interest going to work. My alacrity, gone. Keja kuat2, bayar not equal to my sweat, my tiredness, my hardwork.... what's the point. I tore the paper away. Sucks.

Tell me beloved friends, beloved readers, what should i do?
What would u do if you were in my shoes?
Please, advise me.

Tuesday to Thursday

Sorry people, took quite some time to update, i've been hell yeah busy.. We'll talk about that later, let's read updates for now awcay..(",)

Yesterday, once again Cinta Hati was invited by mum to break fast with us. I was gardening, mom called and 'we are having seafood tonite, why not u invite Jordan to come over and join us?' And so i did. And cinta hati said yes as well.

Cinta Hati. *giggles!

Cinta Hati is a man who knows his manners. No wonder mom likes him in just a matter of days. Greeted mum well, such a gentleman. I loike and im impressed. (",) Anyhow, we had a great dinner, chit chat a bit and after a while, home he went.. Thanks mom, again.

And today, after work, i kept myself busy baking another caramel pudding. Yum..i didnt have much time to rest because today too, is the day for Berbuka Puasa bersama Pelajar, Solat Tarawih, Solat Hajat and Witir at school. As the matter of fact, i just arrived home half an hour ago..now i'm relaxing, watching The Green Mile while squashing bits and bits of my scrumptious caramel pudding into my mouth. Oh syedap. My second slice actually.

My first slice.. tadi potong tak tengok betul2, so ada cacat sikit..

Second one..

Tomorrow is the last day of school before raya. 1 week off, im glad rather. Baking more Pearl Sweet Pearl Choco Moist Cake. For Cinta Hati, requested by him personally. He said 'Sayang, kek chocolate sedap..buat lagi satu boleh, just for me' oh how can i say no? *senyum bangga.

Sleepy eyes.. Im hitting the sack now ok..

Nite people. Pleasant dreams.

Raya preparation

This year, i'm having 9 pairs of baju kurung/kebaya for Raya.
Yep, u read that right. Nine. Sembilan.

Banyak kan? I dont even know when am i going to wear them.
All these were not bought at one shot.. ada kain, i antar tailor..
ada kain, i antar tailor.. so accumulated, becomes 9. hehehe..

Takpelah kan..i guess i can always wear them for functions or
if im lucky enough to keep my job till next year, i can wear them
to work. And yea, be with my students once more.

Raya ni, i'm baking Pearl Sweet Pearl Choc Moist Cake again.
Khamis ni will make one dulu, for mom's off bday month..
banyak sungguh order.. bangga i.. kena puji ok.. (",)

Here it is again..:)

Talking bout crib deco, still on hold. Busy with work, could not
find the right time yet. But i'll make the house shines it outshines
the rest of the houses in my neighbourhood here. Wah, melampau.
hehehe..

Im done with updates. Kepenatan. Been juggling with work, side
school work, and free time. Wish i can have 26 hours instead of 24.
Nite sweet people.. muah!